Taking Master Abroad, Getaway VS Pursuing Life's Objectives

Up til now, it is difficult for me to answer this question. Getting my master degree abroad recently, it is my life objectives or it's just my getaway ticket from my miserable work place.

I have my clear obsession to pursue my master and Phd abroad. I have a strong will to do that, and I won't stop until I could get my Phd, and standing on a podium being a professor. With this explanation, probably all of you would say, actually you did answer your question. But my heart says, it is not.

It's not the matter of I'm not proud to what I do, that is exactly not true. I am so proud of what I do, but the environment where I work is actually the problem. In my simple mind, and from a very simple thought, that people go to work, beside getting money; which is the utmost important to people, the first reason for people to getup early in the morning is to fulfill their basic needs, is for people to grow and making improvement in order to; if you think about it a little bit farther, at the end perhaps you will get the same conclusion with me; in order to fulfill people's needs and wants.

Now, at my work place, I am not experiencing this thing, getting myself improved. And also, there are bad habits that they are introducing to me.

Some people might say, you should be thankful you do have a job in Jakarta, it is really hard to find one there. But that is not my objective, I don't go to college just to get a job, I go to college because I have a lot bigger dreams than just getting a high paying job, which is not happening to me either. I want to make a change in this world, in Indonesia, In Jakarta and for Islam.

In a process to pursue my goal, I can't just stay here, swallowing a lot of bad behavior to me. Getting late everyday, ignoring control to subordinates; whenever something happens the superior will then just start thinking, no job description; so superior can just instruct anything to you without any consideration as long it is getting done, never discuss any new regulation; everything just goes as it is, do not make a report as what it is; always being hectic to find a way in order to make that report looks very good to the big boss and terrifically the big boss never do the control part, each one at the office tries to looks good to the superior; instead of being supportive to be a good team, superior can just take-off from the office or take a leave whenever they need to, etc. So, tell me people, is this a healthy environment for you to grow?

And i know what you might say, welcome to Jakarta and to the real life. This is exactly what we have to survive from. So pathetic!

I think, I might say, yes, I want to take my master degree abroad as a getaway ticket for me from the place I work now and in a process to pursue my goal to make a change in this pathetic world. So then, i would know for sure, deep down in my heart, my real motivation for taking my master degree.

One thing I have to be thankful to right now is, my work place taught me to be tough and to open my eyes that the environment I live in right now is pathetic. So God, please help me getting my ticket.