Re-opening My Blog

The first time i opened my blog again, the first word came out from my mouth was "My God, i haven't write in almost three months!!" That's a very long time though while i feel i can do a lot of things in a day if i can wake up early in the morning. This is so getting away from the promise I made on last November.

A lot of things happened. And it is shameful that i can't tell all the stories. but I am trying to catch up this time, i'll try to remember wat i've missed.

One thing I remember the most from November and December was, I was starting my effort to pursue a master scholarship abroad. Why in the world I still want to pursue my master degree abroad?? nope, that's not the question really, we shud ask, WHY NOT? but actually, I have this obsession from my childhood that I really want to be a professor in one field of knowledge. I used to look up to Prof. Dr. Ing BJ Habibie, or Prof. Quraisy Shihab, that in my thought at that time, they were amazing that they have such understanding in one field of knowledge. And besides, it was my parents that in some way look to professors differently, i mean in a good way and somehow I think they are making this hypno-parenting thing like wat people do now to their children to make me believe that being a professor is a very good thing.

Ok, i know this would be a long journey although i wish it would not be that long. But i'll do my best to keep you in the loop of the story. The first effort I did was taken an IBT-TOEFL test. It was a hard decision, since it is pretty expensive for me and I really need money for my wife because she is pregnant and its almost her due date. I was having a second thought when I planned to take it, but I have one very convincing and strong wife who assured me how important it is. So without hesitation, I did go for it. I googled, and I found that if you want to take an IBT-TOEFL Test in Jakarta, the only place you can go is to look for ETS representative in Jakarta, then you can either subscribe through the website or direct at the office. There is no difference actually, the only difference is the method of payment. If you feel comfortable to pay with credit card, then you can directly subscribe through it's website, but if you dont, then you can go to the ETSrepresentative and buy somekind a voucher and you can subscribe through the email with that voucher. I did pay on November and I chose the test on 19th of December 2010 so I would still have some time to prepare.

I was scared since it is my first time to take IBT-Toefl. The last TOEFL I took was around six years ago, it was Paper-Based TOEFL. The IBT-Toefl has more comprehension test, the test includes 4 sections; reading comprehension, listening, speaking and writing. The first step i need to do was to find a preparation book. To find it in an official store here in Jakarta gonna be expensive, so ii need to google to find the free one. And lucky me, i found one and also my wife had one too. I have the book, then the next step i need to do was to spare some time for studying.

I didnt really have enough time for studying, but one thing that makes me very confident is, my wife and my son. I know i'd do anything for them. And there hey are, always standing beside me whenever I need them. Me, taking this test, is not going to be my future, it is going to be our future, my little family future.

On the day, 19th of Dec 2010, I woke up early in the morning, although i didnt sleep well on the night before. But having my mind remembered that this test is to pursue my obsession and my little family future, so I am so excited. In my mind, I have this imagination that the test was going to be in some kind like a special room for each test-taker since they have speaking test, so it’s going to be a chaos if they put al the test takers in the same room. But when I arrived there, I was so surprised that we are all as the test takers been put in the same room. The room was like a language laboratory. It was one disappointment.

But every test I took, I did it very smoothly.

And I know I might not get a very good result, because my effort was not above any other people. So let's wait for the result then!

(It's a lot to tell indeed, while i am having limited time. But i'll put you all in the loop from now on, and there is one story that made me a very happy person in the world above every one else, just hang there!)